The More I Seek You

We sang an older song that's new to the congregation last Saturday. It's from Gateway Worship, from the Living For You album released in 1999, and it's titled "The More I Seek You". Within just a short span of time, it's found a place that's close to my heart, and even more so as I have just thought through it carefully while listening to it over and over again during my Quiet Time with God today. Just a really simple song, a peaceful song, an introspective kind of song, played with just 1st keys and 2nd keys, but it really is meaningful, and really, I tend to respond better personally with such worship songs - helps to still my heart and find peace, to get my perspectives right, to come back to God, to come back to knowing why I'm doing what I'm doing, and most of all, to know God's heart ever deeper. The lyrics are like so:

The More I Seek You

Verse

The more I seek You, the more I find You

The more I find You, the more I love You

Chorus

I want to sit at Your feet

Drink from the cup in Your hands

Lay back against You and breathe

Feel Your heartbeat

This love is so deep

It's more than I can stand

I'll melt in Your peace

Overwhelming

Yeah, so... Simple song isn't it? But it all leads from one thing to another so beautifully!

The more we seek God, look for Him, want to know Him deeply, the more we find Him, and He reveals Himself to us slowly.

And the more we find God, how His ways are, how He's blessed us, what His character's like, what He's done for us since we've come to know Him, the more we love Him. It's impossible once you've taken the first real step of faith in God, not to acknowledge the miraculous timing and divine blessings God has given us - He really does run the rest of the 9,999,999,999,999,999,999 steps (okay, more than that =P) to you once you've taken that first shaky step of faith towards Him! It's inevitable that we'll love Him and will want to love God back once we come to know and understand Him a little bit better. ^^

And because we know that God loves us so, we want to love Him back, and do all those things that the chorus implies. We want to sit at His feet, to listen with rapt attention to His words of wisdom, encouragement, calming peace, listen as He teaches us, rebukes us, corrects us, and trains us with His word. We want to grow in our spirituality and character and be more like Jesus, our idol!

We want to drink from the cup in His hand, the cup that could mean so many things - it could mean anointing, it could mean refreshing, it could mean communion... Personally, I tend to take it more as the cup of the Spirit, I want to drink till it overflows out of me, and manifests itself in the form of anointing in whatever I do, be it ministry, leading, discipling, testifying...

We want to lean back against Him and breathe. We want to take time out, and just be close and intimate with God, and relate to Him as a friend. We want to behold the miracle of a creator that is infintely more powerful than us, but can also relate to us on a personal level, relate to all our emotions - our joy, sadness, enthusiasm, fear, heartache. If no one understands you, God will!

We want to feel His heartbeat! We want to know Your heart oh God! We want to know what Your heart beats for, want to know what every beat conveys, want to know what breaks Your heart (help us break our own hearts for the same things God!), want to know Your compassion for the billions of people that don't know and don't WANT to know You that squeezes your heart so. Our human hearts are so limited! We only have space in our hearts for a few loved ones, and when someone breaks our heart, we cry buckets of tears. But SO MANY people break God's heart ALL the time, and He feels for ALL of them as we do for that one person that breaks our heart! Don't know how He can stand it...

This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand. God is our creator. He loves us more deeply and profoundly than we can ever understand. He doesn't love us because of what we've done or what we are (pooh!), He loves us because that is who He is! How can we ever stand to be loved like that, and not love Him back with what He's given to us!? I think the only way to understand a little better how God loves us, is when we become parents and love our children, but even that's just a tiny fraction of God's unconditional love for us.

I'll melt in Your peace overwhelming. This is lovely. It is such a privilege to feel the peace that only God can give us. There is incredible joy in this! Whether it's coming before God to commune with Him, or busying ourselves with work and ministry, having an uncluttered and unfluttered heart that is secure and at peace with God is the only thing that no one can take away from us, and can truly fill us up and makes us content and keeps our perspectives in check. Doing all those things in the first part of the chorus helps keep us focused and maintain peace in our heart because it helps convict and remind us that we are doing what we are doing because we love God. ^^

There! I felt that this was something that I needed to do. I hope that whoever reads this will ruminate about the song too - some people may not tend to think as deeply into the lyrics of a song. This is the first time I've really done it, and it's really blessed me. I didn't even really have the intention of doing it. Just thought it was a nice song and kept playing it repeatedly on my computer... If anyone reads this and doesn't have the song, ask me on MSN alright? =) Got to go study for my exam on Friday now, catch you guys another time. ^^