Moment of Weakness

When insecurity and low self-esteem hits a person who isn't used to it anymore, who thought that that stage was all over, it hits like a ton of bricks. So it did today, out of the blue, and it's been a long time since I've truly had a tussle with it.

But I turned to working out and seeking my God at the same time, and in the process managed to stiffen my resolve, blow away those cobwebs, and rebuke my emo-ness. Thank you, God, that I can put the release of endorphins via exercise to good use! ^^

Of course, You helped me see how I was fretting and being bitter over trivial matters and gnawing my fingernails over things I can't control as well. I'm not usually like that these days - I'm mostly of the opinion that the present matters the most. Maybe it was the bitter gourd I had for dinner. *weak laugh*

So I have a headache now, probably through overstretching myself in my physical efforts. But you know, it's not so bad - I'd take a mild headache over being emo anytime. (Y)

I have no idea how you knew, but you did, and helped some, rather unknowingly too, I should think! Thanks for caring. =)

Swimming tomorrow with QJ! Sunblock: check! I hate being burnt! And then it's practice at Nexus at night. I played last week, I'm playing this week, and I'm playing for the next two weeks. Hmm, I rather think that I'll have to turn a slot over to Alfonso because of an upcoming China trip! D=

Ordered new stuff for my bass a little over a week ago! A set of Nordstrand Fat Stacks 5 pickups and an Audere 3ZB on-board bass preamp. Hope it comes soon, then I can turn it over to TYMC to restring, setup, and swap everything out. And hopefully, my tone at Christmas'll help God blow the crowd away! =P

Well, just felt that I needed to get that out and help me reflect. Shower, practice, bed. Goodnight! =D